feelings the day before surgery

At this time tomorrow, I'll be out cold, completely oblivious to anything, while my husband waits and prays in the waiting room. Strange to think about.

How I'm feeling:

nervous: I've had several surgeries before with general anesthesia (wisdom teeth, heart, hysteroscopy) but I'm still pretty nervous. It's such a vulnerable thing to be on the operating table, trusting your doctor + people you've never met before that they'll be gentle and keep you safe! The more I think about it, the more nervous I get, so moving on...

surrounded by love, care, and prayers: our friends and family have been so wonderful to us! I already feel pampered. We have friends bringing us meals from Saturday to Thursday, and other friends who are going to come visit. My mom is bringing down homemade comfort food: chocolate chip cookies, cherry pie, plus my childhood favorites: vanilla wafers (the layered rectangle ones, not the round ones) and sugary peach rings. So many people have offered us prayers and remembered us at mass. I received the annointing of the sick yesterday and one friend even called a 90-year-old priest in another state who has a healing ministry and asked him to pray for us! All of this love and prayers makes me feel more relaxed and at peace.

a little sick: I've had an itchy throat since Tuesday afternoon (horrible timing!!!). It's mostly better now but I'm also blowing my nose more than usual. I took off today to rest and try not to get any worse. I'm a little nervous that this could affect the surgery, maybe even cancel it, but I'm reassured after talking to my brother (a doctor) and a friend who's a nurse. They both said a little cold or allergies shouldn't be a problem.

as prepared as possible: THANK YOU Stephanie for your amazing guide to laparoscopy!! We printed it out, highlighted key sections, and used it as a shopping list. So, sooo helpful! In addition to everything Stephanie recommends, we also bought 1) a sippy cup with swirly straw so I can drink my juice while not sitting up, and 2) a box of freezer pops to have something icey to soothe my throat afterwards. I also have my outfit ready for tomorrow and picked out some books and DVDs at the library yesterday.

curious: I have no idea what this surgery is going to show. I don't have any noticeable signs of endometriosis, but I know that it's often asymptomatic. I'm praying that the results give us something - anything! - that can translate into healing my body and - please God - help us conceive.

I'm grateful for YOUR prayers and will be praying for you too and especially for others recovering from or preparing for surgery!

+EcceFiat+